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Friday, January 15, 2010
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done!!!
i had uploaded my birthday picture!
hehe..
enjoy!!!
had a great time though the celebration isn't a big one
but mum promised that she is going to make a big one for me like a chalet or something..
am honored for that..
ahaskz..
well..
received presents..
will take picture of it..
and upload it later..
sorry to upload it late
as had been busy with work and no time for blogging
*when actually wasting the time in MSN & Facebook..
oopsz!
sorry diary!!
hehe..
didn't forget u..
its just that am lazy to type..
and furthermore, if i have no mood, i shall not diary..
=]
adios..
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
happy birthday to me..
happy birthday to me..
happy birthday to me..
happy birthday to me..
hehe..
its my birthday and i turn a year older..
now im 20..
gosh..
time flies so fast that i can't believe im 20!!
hehe..
well..
had a bdae cake and am surrounded by my cousins and auntie uncles..
had a blast though its nt a big celebration..
juz a normal one..
weeee....
mom gave me a hug and a kiss all over my face..
and she keep hugging me like something is amiss..
hopefully its just a stupid feeling..
all those kisses and hugs and declaration makes me woke up..
'cos for the first time ever i felt like as if its sincere and came right down from her heart..
am really touched..
thank you mum..
im really am happy on my bdae..
but im sorry..
deep down feel sad too..
in exactly 12 days from now its going to be dad's 8th year death anniversary..
time does past by fast..
am really sad..
couldn't believe its that fast..
now im just praying that he is ok..
i think i better end it here before i get too deep wif my feelings and cry..
Friday, January 8, 2010
.....
sheesh..
im really am confused on whats going on..
could someone please tell me the truth?
im sicked of all the pretense and games..
it hurts you know?
haisz..
till when am i going to stand all this heartthrob..
am i destined to feel and faced all this?
but till when is all this going to end..
i have patience limitation people?
gosh..
does people even realized that i have feeling like them..
but why are they all treating me this way?
have i ever hurt them or say bad stuffs bout them to others..
no! totally..but why are they doing this to me?
argh..
please..
don't make me hurt u even a second?
'cos i bet u its going to hurt deep down in the heart..
so,please don't force me to do things that i don't wish to do?
'cos that's not me totally..
seriously..
now the only daily routine i always do is
-work
-family
-alone
i know..
it sucks right?
but i can't do anyrhing
i just don't want to be hurt nor hurting anyone anymore
i just want it to flow by itself
if really there is love for me out there
i am sure if it meant for me, it will come to me
but,for now i don't want to find love
instead i want love to come and look for me
sometimes i do admit that flashbacks do happened
and that sometimes could make me cry till i fall asleep
but i can't simply do anything
cos that's just the way they want it to be
but have anyone paused and do a soul search?
have they ever have that thoughts that along the way in their life they are hurting others surrounding them?
especially their loved ones?
i know i do..
but sometimes it happens for a reason u know?
im sorry to have lie my way through
but, like i say, i don't want to hurt anyone anymore
if really there is an explanation to be done
please ask me..
for now my life is work and family..
i guess that's the only way i can busy myself without thinking of being lonely..
confusion wana dissapear..
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
please tell me what is happening..
Ya Allah..
sesungguhnya hati ku lemah..
Bantulah diri ini untuk cekalkan hati ini untuk menempuhi semua ini
Ya Allah..
jika ini adalah jalan yang harus ku lalui demi untuk mendapatkan cinta sejatiku..
aku rela Ya Allah..
biarlah titis demi titisan airmataku jatuh berguguran..
kerna hanya airmata yang dapat membuat hatiku tenang..
jika benar dia menyintaiku, ku berharap semua ini dapat membuktikan kepadanya betapa
aku benar benar menyintainya..
cinta yang terbit dari hati ini benar benar hanya untuk nya seorang..
walau apa pun akhir cerita ini akan ku tabahkan hati..
kerna aku percaya semua ini ada penyebabnya..
Ayah..
maafkan adik ayah..
maafkan adik..
maafkan adik kerna titisan demi titisan berguran selama ini..
anak ayah tak setabah yang ayah inginkan..
tapi ayah, percayalah..adik telah buat segala yang termampu sebelum gugurnya airmata ini..
adik rindukan ayah..
maafkan adik kerna sentiasa menyebut nama ayah dan menangis setiap kali terkenang akan diri ayah..
namun usah ayah risau kerna adik selalu berdoa semoga ayah ditempatkan dengan orang orang yang beriman..
bantulah adik ayah..
berikan semula semangat dan kekuatan adik yang telah ayah bawa pergi..
cukupla selama hampir 8 tahun ayah membawa ia pergi..
pulangkanya pada adik ayah..
maafkan adik sekali lagi ayah..
maaf..
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
*staring at the screen not knowing what to blog in today*
too many things happening right now..
aint sure where to start..
my head and my mind is in total blank right now..
sheesh..
gosh...
dont know what am i supposed to write..
had been staring the screen for a looong time..
haisz..
i guess better not confuse my mind deeper..
let just end it here..
guess i will not blog anything for today..
Saturday, December 26, 2009
You are my Love you are my Life
I love you so much, will you become my wife
You are my love this I say is true
And if you say yes I will then marry you
We walk through the beach our feet caress the sand
You then turn to kiss me like no other can
Our time is so short so we must use it well
This is our story that our children’s children will tell
So let not this night end for it is our time you see
This is our story that our children’s children will tell
So let not this night end for it is our time you see
Our night to sing and dance our night to be free
You are my Love you are my Life
I love you so much, will you become my wife
You are my love this I say is true
And if you say yes I will then marry you
Resources frm :
Omotayo Oluwaseun
Thursday, December 24, 2009
this post i write specially for my lil cuz Areen
Areen,
i know i had been busy with my work and stuffs lately
i just hope you understand my situation
but one thing i want you to know is that
i will never forgets you where ever i am or whatever i might be doing
'coz like i said, you are one of those who are dearest to me
thus don't ever have that thinking okay?
don't worry cousin..
we are going to meet up soon and catch up with things okay?
am really missing you too..
now my life is going haywire at the moment
i just need time to settle everything up
i hope you are enjoying your balance school holidays which are only 2 weeks left if i am not mistaken?
Good luck to your future endeavors and studies cousin
and i want you to remember one important thing..
that i am always there in your heart no matter where i am or whenever it is
even if i am no more alive
i will always love u
by the way bout the lesbian thingy, it was just a joke cousin
hopefully you are not taking it seriously
can't wait to see you soon cousin!!
and as January drawing nearer
it makes me losing myself..
i hate January!!!
sheesh..
i guess i am going to end it here cousin
see you this weekend for the religious festive aite?
missing you and loving you,
ema
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